"Spencer, it's okay."  He says calmly looking me directly in the eyes.  I can tell that he's being truthful, my dad has the most honest eyes I've ever seen.  "I love you, no matter what."  I finally exhale the breath I didn't realize I was holding.  I felt this huge relief.  The bad reaction I had expected and prepared for never came but then...

"Spencer, you're not gay."  My mom stated.  I hadn't even noticed she was standing in the doorway.  All I could do was stare at her.

"Paula, don't..."  My dad started.

"No Arthur.  I raised my daughter right and she isn't gay.  Spencer you're at that age when you're discovering who you are and you're just confused, that's all."  This snapped me out of my daze and really pissed me off.  Who the fuck does she think she is?

"No that's not all, Mom.  I've discovered myself and I'm gay!"  I yell, my face turing red with frustration.  "I'm sorry that you're disappointed, but I can't change it and I don't want to."  I sigh looking my mom in the eye, hoping she can see how much pain she is causing me.

"Spencer, maybe you should just try dating boys.  I think that maybe it'll..."

"Mom, stop please.  I'm gay.  Dating some guy isn't going to change that."  I sigh.  "Don't you see. Some people go their whole lives trying to figure out who they are, but I've already done that and I'm happy."  I say with tears streaming down my face.  I look at my mother and I notice she has tears in her eyes too.  "I know that you think that being gay is an abomination in the eyes of God, but..."

"Spencer, stop.  I don't think that.  I mean I don't think being gay is natural, but we're not to judge, that's God's job.  I just want what's best for you, that's all."  My mom cried.

"And I'm old enough to figure out what that is for myself."  I state, going to walk out of the room.  As I pass my mom she puts her hand on my shoulder.