"I got carried away this morning and my actions are inexcusable. I need to tell you that I REALLY like you and even though Arin can't read this card I feel like I should keep what I have to say G rated. : ) The last few days have opened my eyes to something I can clearly see that I want and that something is you. Spencer Carlin I love you and the way you love my family but know that I'm not asking for a commitment from you I just need you to know that I can't just be your friend anymore. I've had a glimpse of what my forever could look like in waking up with you in my arms this morning and I can't imagine not having you in my life ever again."

I feel myself sniffling and a hand reaches out to wipe away tears that I didn't even realize had fallen

I look up into Ashley's eyes, "do you really mean all of this?"

"Every word"

"Mmkay"

"Okay?"

"Yes okay. I accept your apology and I accept that you love me and I hope that you accept that I love you just as much, maybe even more."

"Not possible." She whispers as the distance between us is diminished and her lips lightly graze mine before there is a small body tugging at both of our legs.

"Mommy you kiss Spencer."

"Yes baby, I did kiss Spencer."

Arin turns to me with that Dennison look in her eyes, "do you like my mommy Spencer?"

"I like your mom a whole lot."

"Yay!" She wiggles around doing a little dance and we pull each other close again. "So you get married now!" Both of our eyes go wide are her exclaim and she's staring with excitement in her big brown eyes.

"Teapot, wait a second okay." Ashley tried to grab Arin to calm her down but she's dancing off to her room. "Glen, she said yes! They gonna get married. You're my uncle. Can we go get my ice cream now?!"

"GLEN!!!" he surfaces wearing a large grin and is putting on his coat to take Arin out.

"I didn't know she was going to say all of that jeez but come on, it's not like it's a bad idea." Sadly he is being dragged out the door by a four year old. "Just think about it. We'll be back soon. Addison is watching Handy Manny in his room with a sippy cup. Text me your flavor requests, Bye!"

I just shake my head, "I can't believe those two. I vote to kick them off the island dammit."

"I dunno, I see no harm in it." She gives me the biggest grin, "I guess I better buy you a ring now." We both just bust out laughing at the situation until tears are in our eyes.

We understand the need for this laughter because the weight of really having that conversation is too heavy for the moment. So for now we just cherish the small touches here and there and enjoy the remainder of the day together.

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Usually I'm home by now attending my childhood church's evening service but today I'm sitting in the pew of First St. Mary of Los Angeles. Glen and I decided to stay in town a bit longer and being we're bred Catholics it's not like us to miss a Sunday. I've visited this chapel a few times and the center donates and volunteers to this church often.