Damn was 4th period amazing! Spencer and I sat beside each other and talked the entire time, I could’ve sworn I was blushing the entire time. Damn her for being to fuckin cute. I mean, she can’t help that she looks amazing. When we were walking out of class I ask,
“So, do you have lunch now?” I say, looking down and messing with my fingers.
“Yeah actually, why do you ask?” She says with that smile.
“Well… I was wondering if maybe you wanted to, oh I don’t know, um, have lunch with me?” God I am such an idiot! I’ve never had this problem with a girl, normally they’re the ones asking me and honestly, I could care less if they had lunch with me, why does this girl have me so hooked?
So lost in my thoughts, Spencer shook me, “Ash? Are you alright there?”
Woah, she just called me Ash “Yeah I’m fine, what did you just say?”
“I said I would love to have lunch with you.” Then she flashes me her smile, that I’ve come to love.
“Haha uhh, then let’s go eat.” I say blushing again, dammit I have got to control that!
***
Spencer and I decided to eat away from school, thank God too. I didn’t want to have to deal with Kyla and Aiden all over each other this year. I asked her to pick where to eat, but since she had no idea where anything was, I picked and we went to this little restaurant that I love. Nobody ever goes there, so I thought it would be perfect. And sure enough, we were the only people in there so we went to a table in the back and looked at our Menu’s.
“So, did you leave a boy back home?” I ask Spencer, hoping she’ll tell me what I long to hear.
“Um, no, I uh… I don’t exactly date.” She says, her eyes not meeting mine.
“What do you mean you don’t date?”
“I mean… I don’t date boys…”
Hell to the yeah! Spencer is gay! God I was hoping she was, but I wasn’t entirely sure. But man this just made my fuckin day! Trying to hide the smile on my face I say,
“Oh really?”
“Yeah… You don’t mind that though right?”
‘Girl why would I mind? I want to fuckin date you already! Wait Ash, play it cool.’
“No I don’t mind, I’m actually gay too.”
“Really?! That’s awesome! Uh I mean, that’s cool.”
Ha man, Spencer is so not good at hiding her excitement. But I find it adorable. Like even if she wasn’t gay, I wouldn’t try to turn her, that would be her decision. No matter how much I’d want her to be my Girl, I could deal with just being friends, okay well, maybe best friends. But now that I know she is gay, I’m starting to like her more. But for some reason, I don’t want to treat her like I do to everyone else. Just fuck them then dump them. I actually want to get to know her and spend time with her. She’s different than every other gay person I’ve met.
