-SPENCER’S POV-

“Spencer, you should go.” I jumped slightly at her rusty voice cutting through the silence the past half hour had built up. My heart burned at her hollow words. I brushed auburn locks away from her cool face.

“I’m not going anywhere, sweetie.”

“Spencer… I, I just want to be alone.” My arms wrapped tighter around her front and I pulled Ashley’s body closer to my front.

“No. I’m not letting you go.” I didn’t like this. Her voice was too unemotional for what just happened and I could feel Ashley trying to contain her shivering. “Honey, I’m going to leave you. You need me here with you. I love you, ok, Ashley? Gosh, baby, why can’t you just except that.” I asked, stroking the side of head. My lips pressed a kiss just under her ear and I felt her tighten up.

“I need space, back the fuck up!” I tried to not cry at her angry words. She’s been through a lot, I told myself.

“I’m just trying to help Ashey-”

“Fuck, Spencer. Could you just shut for like two seconds? And by the way, I’m not five ok, so cut the Ashey shit.” My jaw shook and I tried to stop the tears that threatened to fall.

“Ashley, what’s wrong with you?” I whimpered.

“For the love of- What don’t you get Spency? I. Don’t. Want. You. Here.” I couldn’t help it and started to cry. What had happened to her? “Fuck- SHUT UP, SPENCER! SHUT YOUR DAMN MOUTH AND GO!” I began to sob uncontrollably. She just sighed and rolled farther over onto the bed. I sat there, tears distorting my vision, watching as my girlfriend- lover- just continue to go back to sleep. Trying desperately to quite my crying as to not disturb her, I slunk out of bed and started to pick up my clothes. The shirt I had been wearing was on the chair and my panties where in the middle of the floor. I gave up on finding my right sock and made my way to the door sniffling. I hesitated, then decided to say it anyways.

“I, I love you, Ash-ley.” I added quietly.